tonight is hard. I don’t know why. I know that God is good and has a plan for my life, and I trust in that. The hope for the future is there, but that doesn’t change the fact that right now and in this moment, I’m finding things a bit difficult. I miss people that no longer want me, and I miss the way things were. I used to feel like if I were sad, there was something wrong with me. Now I recognize that if I can’t be sad, there’s something wrong with me.
tonight I’m sad. Not in a throw-my-own-pity-party way, but in that bittersweet stillness where my heart just kind of aches.